2 whichever version of u is listening



u were my holy grail for all the wrong reasons

back when i didn’t believe in satan

i needed to save a man who i would never know

i needed to crash up against a six storey cement sea wall for a few years because someone told me water could soften things

i needed to save a man who didn’t even want to know me, not really, not the way i needed to be known

and thank you

here r some things about me u never knew:

when i believed he was angry @ u for taking away his shiny toy, i told him to put his hands around my throat

i absorbed that violemce bc i’d done it before and i knew it would go somewhere

this anger was something i was trying to save everyone from

but u weren’t even there and he set me up

this was only possible bc i am the girl who will put her life on the line to save those i love

how am i supposed to believe that i loved u now that i know u were never there

either way, i know u never loved me

and when i tried to show u my fears, u turned away

the real u before u left that first time

but what i learned is that we can’t save anyone

except i saved me

i learned to honour my worth and do my best to love each part of me just as they are

so thank u

wherever u r

Author: tendrilwise

Hi, I have a diploma in Journalism, I've published a novel, and I am currently studying psychology. My odd way of viewing the world either gets me kicked out of parties or invited to them. Jenn McKay

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